Week 33

This week proved to be challenging on an emotional level. I dealt with a minor health issue, found out more work would be added to my plate at work, had the possibility of my life changing forever, wished relationships could be easy, hoped my settlement from my accident would come through, stressed about my fundraising, and every time I looked to the right on my blog saw my race day was creeping ever closer. Sigh. A lot in the way of anxiety happened this week.

Monday
Had my minor medical procedure. Held back tears in the doctor's office but was ok in the end. Went home and went to bed.

Tuesday
Did one hour of core plus some stretching. A morning phone call at work made me happy. Was exhausted the whole day. Came home and watched Undeclared til bed.

Wednesday
Dragged myself out of bed and ran for an hour along Crissy Field. Felt better. Learned at work that I'd probably be getting MORE work. Stressed about projects. Felt tired. Decided I needed a Peanut Butter M&M intervention. Went home. Went to bed early but checked my email right before bed and got the miracle donation. Faith in humanity restored for the moment.

Thursday
Did an hour of core and then stretching. Was disappointed as usual early in the day. Tried to save someone's world. Disappointment slightly lifted a bit later. Life changing moment did not happen. Bought some used bike gear. Came home exhausted and watched more Undeclared.

Friday
Woke up at 4am, couldn't get back to sleep, finally did and then woke up at 8am and felt like crap. Was super tired. Finished the work projects, cleaned my desk. Left work early. Bought sports nutrition. Came home and even tho I was so tired ended up staying awake very late watching 1900 House.

Saturday
Woke up a 4:45am Got ready for an 80 mile ride up in Napa. Expected it to be warm and sunny but turned out to be cold, windy and rainy. Was not prepared. Grumbled the whole way. Did not want to do 80 miles, got talked into 75. Did it but hated it. Came home. Got ready for dinner. Had fun though blindsided by surprise information. Tried to deal. Came home. Watched a movie and fell asleep. Went to bed. Had anxiety dreams.

I'm smiling on the inside

Sunday
Woke up. Met Yi for a 12 mile run. Run was good. Couldn't get home because of Carnivale. All roads leading to my house were blocked by festival and/or parade. Took 2 hours but not before I broke down sobbing in front of the traffic cop. Came home. Showered. Emotionally and physically exhausted, sobbed for an hour in bed...then on the phone to best friend. Then on the couch. Watched the movie that I fell asleep to the night before. Typed blog.